2025 is still going, and yeah, there’s not much time left. That squished time usually makes someone locked-in hard enough, and yeaa, we better use the time we have to do our best. Yosh!
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First 2025 quarter, my energy was skyrocketed in January, doing some extreme workouts and runs, that’s nuts when I reflect on it. In February, me trying back to the internet, online from zero genuinely, deploying this website, replying to random post on Xitter. Then March was a bit blue/down, but hey that’s okay, I’m slowly trying to rise up!
I’m grateful for the first quarter of 2025. So glad I’ve finally started the things I’ve been wanting to do for the past half-decade!
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2025-01-publish
Early year burst, exploding. Obession became my motto, like being possessed by David Goggins: Run 100km per week, up hills, in the rain, still stubbornly push through. What matters is strong desire and determination first, no clue how it’ll turn out later.
The start of the year just needs a big spark to become a pivotal moment. Also preparing bit by bit for what I’m going to fight for this year.
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The month I started existing on the internet again after not in publicity since the early 2020s. I made this website, trying to be active on x-dot-com or twitter from zero, knows nothing or how, my weapons is just the desire to exist as human.
I’m willing to be reply ranger, cluelessly replying to random posts, not knowing the bubbles here and there. It’s dark wilderness. Lots of scams in direct messages. I clearly remember my first follower was a bot that dm-ed trying to scam for art commissions. After that I got a follower who was a real person and happen to open art commissions too, I then commissioned. I consider that as the initial milestone for the genuine and support as my steps to move forward.
So basically this month is a new chapter for me to be present and participate in the huge internet. I am also grateful that within one month I gained fun online frens, the real human soul behind pfps, not trapped in a swarm of bots and end up craving fake numbers.
Besides that I am also having fun with drones and had a job as irl cameraman hehe.
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Earlier this month started gloomy, my childhood friend who had been knowing from elementary to high school passed away. That made me mentally shocked, he was a soldier and I considered him a hero.
This month I continued my activities to exist on the internet as genuinely as possible. Researching about my tiny tech bubble on the internet. And yea, a blue mental state brought my body into low energy. But it’s okay, all that’s temporary.
And besides that, I bought a legendary laptop! A Panasonic Let’s Note CF-SX2 for $50! I’ve been using a PC for the past two years because my previous laptop was broken. And yes, the Panasonic laptop isn’t in 100% perfect condition, but hey, I’m pretty happy with my purchase, a retro disc drive that pops-up looks super cool :D
Next month I try to be better :)
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2025-Q2-publish
This quarter I tried to rise up from blue mood, and yep, it works. Trying to do some outside-maxxing, climb mountain, go to beach, and sharing moments with internet.
Not everything went smoothly, I neglected this website. And I wasn’t doing my writing habit as diligently as last year. But the presence of the internet’s existence changed my view and my game, so yeah, this quarter was pretty good, so so grateful!
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2025-04-publish
This month, I’m in a post-slump state, and I want to get back up. The blue mood still lingers. Yet, on the other side, I’m happy to be present on the internet, trying to be social. Writing, jotting ideas, and yapping on x dot com.
What’s surprising is that, without posting any output, just an intuition to have fun, somehow I gained 500 followers haha, pretty lucky I guess.
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This month the beginning of outside-maxxing, I want to rise up from a blue mood. Out of the nowhere, I decided to go hiking climb mountain, to the beach alone. I brought a Panasonic CF-SX2 laptop as my only friends hehe.
I also had some fun with dirt bike, doing some little adrenaline rush. Shared photos on xitter, got a wholesome response, it’s very cute and I’m pretty happy with it.
Besides that, I’m also trying to build habits like jogging in the morning, fixing my sleep pattern by touching grass, only indoors for a short time. I’m also abussing some LLM apps so it can help me reorganize my life.
Yeah, I consider this month pretty wholesome. very grateful for what I achieved even though they are simple things.
Top mountain pic: https://x.com/main_experiment/status/1919604582050591145
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I can say this month has been pretty bright to me.
I continued my habit of going outside, slap up posts and shares. That makes my mental state calmer when using the internet. Speaking of outside, this month I accompanied Dad for trail running, I came along to take pic and document it. He’s very happy.
Besides that, this month is my birthday, yeay! I received several wishes, and in all my embarassing honesty, that might be the most birthday wishes I have received in my 20s. It makes me so happy, even if they are from strangers. Irl, birthday celebration was just a simple meal with family, I am pretty happy with that simple things.
Another thing is building a garage to start a motorcycle micro business. When I post bikes pic, some people asked, “Why do you have so many motorcycles?” Yup, they’re kind of a hobby.
Not all of it was bright though. I was kicked out of the only irl chat group that I cared about, and it makes me question the fake surroundings. But that’s alright, move on. I have to build my presence somewhere else and spend my energy on what I want.
The important things, I bought some plushies, because frankly, me very tired of this ultraminimalism. I really do love cute things, cuteness own my soul.
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2025-Q3-publish
So my plan for this quarter was to make it a full of creating & project. And… things were going smoothly until halfway through. I still managed to touchgrass in July and August.
I had a super wholesome moment: getting a gift from my oomfs. I also had an experience that made me profoundly scared: AI psychosis in a family member. And bitter of getting two motorcycle stolen in my first try business with someone I trusted. All of that really shows the current world and tech, and I learned so many valuable things because of it.
I started post my creation, art, and build activities on Xitter in August, which was really fun, but then my Windows 10 suddenly go puff. So yea, September was spent in front of puter drasticly pivot for a better system (Linux) hehe.
Overall, this quarter was still pretty good! And I’m really grateful for all the moments this quarter brought!
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2025-07-publish
This month has been pretty bright for me, coldy summer has just started!
I still like to go outside and grass stuff, but not as frequently as in previous. Still, outside is fun, especially sharing it with friends.
Something happened that left me scared and panic: someone in my family was affected by AI psychosis, yes, you heard that right. That’s one of the most terrifying and dystopian things I’ve ever witnessed in real life. Thankfully, everything could be handled. I spent time giving advice as someone who knows about tech field and little bit psychology.
Beside that, finally was able to functioning the garage, it’s finished! And to start my micro business, I found a partner (who then rob my motorcycle a month later kek) that’s pretty bruh story.
This month I’m excited to play MechaBreak. I love controlling mechs in video games, I get a real dopamine rush feeling like anime.
And my highlight on the internet is: I started posting my art, yippies! That’s my dream, to somehow be an artist on the internet! Before this, I tried to become an internet artist for a long time, but it never worked well for my sanity and well-being. But this time, it’s the happiest I’ve ever felt posting on my account. I’m glad to exist on the internet!
first art posted on Xitter: https://x.com/main_experiment/status/1949130785585590662?s=20
What a pretty month! I’m very grateful.
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This month, I could say, a pretty month. Why? I’m starting to be more stable individual and bullish. I try to back to art, tackling my artblock, and posting art with the tiny bit of confidence, and little bit of audience I have.
Besides that, I enjoy building silly things to make my internet experience sillier, like creating userscripts for Xitter. I’m trying to vibe with some AI to code, which is pretty fun to me.
I go jogging every day too, even when it’s sometimes late at around 10 PM, I still make time to run outside like a batman, and that feels very nuts. I sometimes run 3 times with short distances. I’m happy to have an active bones instead of a stagnant body with my mind scattered everywhere.
I’m trying to make my creative activities sustainable, then… at the end of the month, my Windows 10 computer crashed without reason. Yoloed, I hopped full-dive on Linux, and everything was alright. Why not Windows 11? Eww… And yeah, that became the biggest disruption of the year.
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This month started with tinkering day and night, trying to bring my puter back to life. Not financially enough to just hop on another decent machine, but hey creativity loves constraints!
Fully hyperfocused on Linux. Earlier this year, I had installed Linux, but I didn’t make it my primary OS. This time it’s time to be serious for a full dive-in. In the process, I became a hopperslop, researching several systems that met my criteria and ideals. And eventually, I’m sticking with NixOS, and ditching Windows from my main machine.
Windows error has cancelled my plans for this month’s quest and disrupted Q3-Q4 projection. I need to make a new map to learn the new paradigm.
The process was brutal for me, sacrificing my schedule and sanity. Brutally honest, system error and getting betrayed, two of my motorcycles got robbed and flown to another island with someone I trusted for starting my first business, makes me kinda lost and depressed, my trust issue is getting humongous… But I’m pretty glad with my nerdiness, I can easily move on, continue to focus on my own things. I simply believe karma exists.
And yeah, Linux saves me, making me fall in love with computers at a deep level that other systems simply can’t reach.
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2025-Q4-publish
Yo, this quarter is still ongoing. My goal is simply: to survive, to build, to create, and never give up!
2025-10-publish
This month continues my obsession with refactoring my system from scratch with Linux + Nix paradigm. I’m obsessed af, forget the day, forget the sun. Being unemployed gives me the power and energy to learn alien things.
Switching to a deep Linux trench and NixOS from Windows is not recommended for any normal person who has a life. But I simply won’t give up. I have experience with Linux in my childhood and teenage years, so it feels nostalgic to me, making me more and more craving for building my pretty system that resonates “waow, that’s literally me.”
Switching to Linux taught me a better system approach, simply by giving me file naming conventions. In Windows, I realized I was trapped in bad system habits and stockholm syndrome. So yeah, trashed Windows downfall never been so good.
This month, I’m ricing Linux with an unholy amount of tinker: desktop environments, custom window managers, from retro to modern, finding what fits and is ideal for my needs.
The best part is finishing the Rinascita main quest in Wuthering Waves. The story is absolute cinema. And yes, I’ve been playing on NixOS the entire month :D
Somehow I shared my thoughts on Xitter and went a bit viral, venting my thoughts as a story is simply fun, and the response from the internet goblins is kinda stinky and funny to me.
What a nerd month XD
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I am slowly restarting my life habits after the operating system chaos. Starting a routine of morning runs. Getting back into creating, sketching, and building things. Something that was delayed, which I should have done in September, I did this month.
This month marks three months since I hopped onto NixOS. My system is starting to run stable, it feels like my old Windows 10, but by miles better and more hackable.
I’m filling content on my website again after 7-month stalled because first I need to understand what it feels like to exist on the internet genuinely. Depression was also a big reason. But hey, I still got the spirit!
Changing the brand @kirbara2000 to @main_experiment and this website from kirbara.com to experimenting.website, because I don’t really like my name slapped on the surface hehe, and embracing experimenting sounds cool and fun.
This month I gained 1000 followers on Twitter, which was one of my biggest quests this year. I’m very happy, but I’m not that proud of it. The awkward thing is why the people who follow are those involved in tech, AI, engineers, founders. I don’t know how, but I’m really really glad, I love nerding about it, so thank you very much!
I can’t wait for the future! Let’s gooo!
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