w☆w 0.5 followers!

I hate the term “followers”… I hate social validation numbers in general: likes, followers, following, notifications, etc. I hate counting them, but when they go up, my serotonin spikes, me smile, me glad, get addicted.

I feel like those numbers give me a responsibility just for existing. I feel like those numbers are fake, but why do they like give me real feeling of meaning and hope?

Sometimes I hide every validation number on the internet with a browser extension, but it turns out it feels lonely? Modern problems are absurd… Yea me the type of person who craves the sincerity of value but defeated in the face of void and loneliness.

For almost 3 months, here I’ve found a few people I consider genuine frens, me proudly show my relatives “Ay look I have friends on twitter :D” but I don’t really know who they are hahaha… We just match vibes and topics of interest via hypertext, nothing more.

For almost 3 months, it’s slowly made me feel psychologically visible. My life has changed. Idk if the future will be better or worse, but I’ll make sure those numbers will help me become a better self!

Thank you for believing in me.