Looking back on my peak artwork this year… Not AI-generated, assisted on early lighting direction and continued to paint obsessively for weeks, done with Krita & GIMP. Not much, but still very proud of this output.
Sometimes as an artist, I think about how an art piece will get valued. Is it only on me as the creator satisfaction, or is it on the audience appreciation?
Sometimes I want to make art as a Non-Fungible Token on Foundation or a similar platform, maybe if I post there, I will be appreciated well in value. Or, I could keep tossing my creations on social media feeds, where people only look at them for a short goldfish attention span, drowning, then forgotten.
Past a day, I see the chaos of image editing which surfaces the convenience of today tech paradigm on top, opening the possibilities of the unaware or even worse, a troll. I see the world with “it is what it is” glasses, so as an artist, I just feel uneasy, nothing more, nothing less.
Sometimes I’m afraid to create, not because of something external, but because I overthink.
I don’t know how to exist as an artist in current internet circumstances, all I do is experiment on my existence itself. Deep in my soul, I want to make art every day, and I don’t know what’s stopping me. This Goliath artblock often drives me crazy.
Still, I pray that I may create something today.