Back then, how hard did you try to exist on this site, purely from zero, trying to socialize? How did you exist as ‘you’ not as your outputs? Did you make friends on here? Are you having fun?

I have only been actively here for 9 months. Looking back, doing some reflection, I crave nothing more than sincerity from souls behind tiny pfps, not bot swarms or fake numbers. My intention is nothing more than just to exist on the internet and share my interests, shitpost, laugh, stories, art, and values.

When I was at 0 here, all I found was spammy reply guys, bot swarms, scam DMs, literally a post-apocalyptic dead internet. Then my first oomfs found me in the wilderness, held my hand out, and showed me the world of other oomfs, and I got a place in the tiny tech bubble.

Now I see many of my OG oomfs deactivated. It makes me re-question myself, as I want nothing more than to exist until I die: to do good, give support even with only little kind words, and build ‘myself’ even though this huge network gives me huge impostor syndrome.

I know, existing not only on here but on almost every corner of the internet alone is exhausting. On almost every platform, they gamify numbers, bangers, prizing engagement not value, not for others but for themselves.

But now? AI has passed the Turing test, fiddling our perception. Now, how does someone from literal zero (not a smurf) build their existence based on sincerity?

How do we live digitally? What do we want, seriously?