Do you ever get so mad, that you want to revenge it by cutting off all the bridge, and make a massive W in the end?
Today I checked Irl Whatsapp and saw I got kicked from the one and only group (as of today) that I joined and genuinely wanted to support. Got kicked just because I don’t use or show up in their mainstream presence.
I always feel like an outsider in my own tribe, turned into a ghost just because I’m not part of the culture (using Instagram status/story nonsense). I know nothing about what society’s up to for the sake of my mental sanity.
Before this, I’ve joined so many irl groups and even made a few communities too. I tried to stay active, sharing insightful stuff, helping genuinely, being nice, silly, and friendly. But because of that, I ended up being the biggest clown.
I had so many people I truly thought were frens, but they didn’t even care about me until it’s not even funny anymore. Yes, I help expecting nothing in return, but at least don’t throw someone away like they’re just a disposable tool.
As I grew up, I got used to accepting that. But today, I got reminded again there’s many fake surrounds me. I feel angry but don’t know who to blame, or which face deserves punch. Because in the end, it is what it is.
So yeah, now this is my only presence in the existential crisis online sphere, there’s nothing normie-self left behind… How do I get into irl social from the ground up?