All you need is one crazy night to change your life completely. Imagine, you are a sane person, ordinary, alright, have a degree, and financially okay, with no mental illness, etc.
One night, you are in your bed, and a voice in your frontal lobe says, “I can start now” Then you immediately go outside, walking and running for five miles at midnight. You go back home, take a long cold shower with the lights off, in pure darkness, and you grumble and vow to yourself, “You can be better than this” like some forbidden mantra.
Then you go back to your bedroom, naked like a crazy person, raging for no particular reason. You grab your pen, write your ultimatum for yourself, and slap it on the wall with tape. You go back to sleep, wake up early in the morning, and it’s raining outside. You don’t give a damn, you just go outside, do push-ups until your arms are incapable to feel, then lay down, look up at the sky, you laugh, you cry. Your neighbors think you’ve been possessed by a demon king. Once again, you don’t give a f about it.
You then go back to your place, burn everything that makes you sad, and start doing cool things you’ve always dreamed of. You just decide to be something different drastically, you don’t wait, you’re just done with your own mental limitations.
A moment like that can change your life. It makes you obsessed, it makes you feel what it means to be “alive” All of that comes at zero cost, it’s like you just flipped a hidden switch. Just do something bold, but don’t do something stoopid like giving up or harming urself. Life is so wonderful you know? Don’t take it for granted, be something you’ve always dreamed of. It’s fun to pursue~